I look around myself and find that there are so many things that are not there, things that were an absolute part of my life earlier. These might be trivial to some but to me, the change of certain things led me to think of the changes that occurred in my life.
My brother and I were talking about random things, and we didn’t know how but we started talking about the PCO’s and STD booths and the coin box telephones. While speaking of these old-school methods of communication, a few of my life’s incidents related to these modes of communication flash before my eyes. I remember how my aunt who had once visited us from Mumbai would ask me to accompany her to the telephone booth because during those days we didn’t have Jio and STD calls could be quite expensive. Whats App was still not founded. Now, this makes me think of how lives can change when something new is introduced.
This was only a thing that lost its importance and we didn’t even realize that. I wonder how sometimes we completely overlook the changes that occur in our lives.
“I got an offer for a job daddy”, I almost sing and tell my dad. “They want me to attend the interview dad”, I tell him a while later. He appears happy. His expression is a mix of happiness, worry and confusion.
Before I leave for the hostel, he asks me if I will be going for the interview. I reply in the affirmative. He stares at me and I try to decipher the meaning behind his stare. He answers before I try to force my head to crack an answer. “Be careful”, he says. I nod and leave.
“Be careful”. These might be two very simple understandable words to everyone, but to me, they were too precious to be forgotten. My dad has always been a person who never speaks out the deepest of his concerns or worries. He always leaves it to us to understand. I couldn’t assure him with words that I would be fine but then, I’m sure he understood. This change in my dad is something I shall always remember.
Little later I begin to think of the opportunity that I had just got. “Wow”, I think to myself. I had actually got an offer to work.” I would start to earn in a little time.” These were the thoughts that did their rounds in my mind. And then suddenly I’m struck with another thought.
“Didn’t I just pass out from school yesterday?” I was a final year grad student I tell myself. Time goes so fast, doesn’t it? I had always thought of how I had wanted to live my life but I never had expected that I’d be able to achieve my dreams. Call me a pessimist or an under confident person, but this was how it was.
"Time and tide wait for none." "Time shall fly and you won’t even know." These are some of the phrases that all of us have grown up listening to. We never trust these to be true until we actually realize them ourselves.
Even now when I think of all the things that have changed in my life, be it in my day-to-day life or my personal life, I think how a person changes according to the changes that occur.
Whenever my phone keeps asking me to update the applications on it, it makes me wonder if it is time to update my life my life as well.
If I could wish for something magical I wish I could just stop time even if it was just for a moment, if I could freeze the changes from occurring, if I could cancel the update requests like I do on my phone. Life would have become a little easy and a little more interesting. Wouldn’t it?
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